I think it has been a really long while since I have updated this blog with my own words, thoughts and life experience sharing. Honestly speaking, I went through a really unique experience in US. A really unique one which I will never ever forget for the rest of my life. It is true… Maybe not for eternity when I am with my Father again but definitely when I am in this School of Life.
I need to record what I am going through right now so that I can know what to share with my brothers and sisters back in Singapore. Too much information to share can sometimes lead me not to know where to begin.
General revelation of my Father is what I am seeing all this while in US. Large Canyons, beautiful lakes, rivers and huge rocks. It is revelation after revelation after revelation of the Father’s work. I do not know what words to use to describe His Master Piece and yet many times I confess that I still argue with Him on why He is putting me through the challenges in life here on earth.
Now while in the car on my way to Idaho Falls, I took out my laptop to write this entry. Not much of my reflection which I admit that I have not been doing for a long while but it is more like an update of my life here in US although very few people back home is really interested in.
It is really sad that I covet for my ‘EVE’ and failed to see my Father in many ways. Why am I still coveting when I already have my Father? Why? Why? Why? I do not know. After missing weddings after weddings after weddings back home, I think I am a 'cursed' man. Simply 'cursed'. By the time I am back home, I will have lost all my talking points with my friends because they have all entered a new phase of life and talking about how to love their wives more, family planning and raising kids. Haha.
Supposedly, I am commissioned to lead a victorious life in Christ but I am not and I also am finding out the reason behind this. I think I should spend more time in God’s Word since I have failed to feed on His Word daily and I am indeed missing out on my daily nutrition. (Mat 4:4) Oh man, my brothers & sisters in Christ back home, pls kindly pray for me to have more time with our LORD here. Pls do not merely say it in your MSN that God is with me. It is no use to me and all of us know this in our hearts, don’t we?. Pls do something more practical (in my opinion) which is to pray for me, ok? Thank you.
The second night when I first moved into my Boise APT, I broke down in front of the LORD. I do not know if I am too lonely or what. I just feel that I am too lost without someone talking to me. One of my primary love language is Quality Time but now is I have no one (no physical person) with me at the moment to spend quality time with me.
Dear LORD, I am sorry that I covet for my ‘EVE’. I pray for your forgiveness and let me take on the rest of my journey in this life with YOU alone, facing the challenges ahead to earn for YOUR crown in my Heavenly home. AMEN.
I need to record what I am going through right now so that I can know what to share with my brothers and sisters back in Singapore. Too much information to share can sometimes lead me not to know where to begin.
General revelation of my Father is what I am seeing all this while in US. Large Canyons, beautiful lakes, rivers and huge rocks. It is revelation after revelation after revelation of the Father’s work. I do not know what words to use to describe His Master Piece and yet many times I confess that I still argue with Him on why He is putting me through the challenges in life here on earth.
Now while in the car on my way to Idaho Falls, I took out my laptop to write this entry. Not much of my reflection which I admit that I have not been doing for a long while but it is more like an update of my life here in US although very few people back home is really interested in.
It is really sad that I covet for my ‘EVE’ and failed to see my Father in many ways. Why am I still coveting when I already have my Father? Why? Why? Why? I do not know. After missing weddings after weddings after weddings back home, I think I am a 'cursed' man. Simply 'cursed'. By the time I am back home, I will have lost all my talking points with my friends because they have all entered a new phase of life and talking about how to love their wives more, family planning and raising kids. Haha.
Supposedly, I am commissioned to lead a victorious life in Christ but I am not and I also am finding out the reason behind this. I think I should spend more time in God’s Word since I have failed to feed on His Word daily and I am indeed missing out on my daily nutrition. (Mat 4:4) Oh man, my brothers & sisters in Christ back home, pls kindly pray for me to have more time with our LORD here. Pls do not merely say it in your MSN that God is with me. It is no use to me and all of us know this in our hearts, don’t we?. Pls do something more practical (in my opinion) which is to pray for me, ok? Thank you.
The second night when I first moved into my Boise APT, I broke down in front of the LORD. I do not know if I am too lonely or what. I just feel that I am too lost without someone talking to me. One of my primary love language is Quality Time but now is I have no one (no physical person) with me at the moment to spend quality time with me.
Dear LORD, I am sorry that I covet for my ‘EVE’. I pray for your forgiveness and let me take on the rest of my journey in this life with YOU alone, facing the challenges ahead to earn for YOUR crown in my Heavenly home. AMEN.
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