Tuesday, December 02, 2008

Psalm 105

 1 Give thanks to the LORD, call on his name; 
       make known among the nations what he has done.

 2 Sing to him, sing praise to him; 
       tell of all his wonderful acts.

 3 Glory in his holy name; 
       let the hearts of those who seek the LORD rejoice.

 4 Look to the LORD and his strength; 
       seek his face always.

 5 Remember the wonders he has done, 
       his miracles, and the judgments he pronounced,

 6 O descendants of Abraham his servant, 
       O sons of Jacob, his chosen ones.

 7 He is the LORD our God; 
       his judgments are in all the earth.

 8 He remembers his covenant forever, 
       the word he commanded, for a thousand generations,

 9 the covenant he made with Abraham, 
       the oath he swore to Isaac.

 10 He confirmed it to Jacob as a decree, 
       to Israel as an everlasting covenant:

 11 "To you I will give the land of Canaan 
       as the portion you will inherit."

 12 When they were but few in number, 
       few indeed, and strangers in it,

 13 they wandered from nation to nation, 
       from one kingdom to another.

 14 He allowed no one to oppress them; 
       for their sake he rebuked kings:

 15 "Do not touch my anointed ones; 
       do my prophets no harm."

 16 He called down famine on the land 
       and destroyed all their supplies of food;

 17 and he sent a man before them— 
       Joseph, sold as a slave.

 18 They bruised his feet with shackles, 
       his neck was put in irons,

 19 till what he foretold came to pass, 
       till the word of the LORD proved him true.

 20 The king sent and released him, 
       the ruler of peoples set him free.

 21 He made him master of his household, 
       ruler over all he possessed,

 22 to instruct his princes as he pleased 
       and teach his elders wisdom.

 23 Then Israel entered Egypt; 
       Jacob lived as an alien in the land of Ham.

 24 The LORD made his people very fruitful; 
       he made them too numerous for their foes,

 25 whose hearts he turned to hate his people, 
       to conspire against his servants.

 26 He sent Moses his servant, 
       and Aaron, whom he had chosen.

 27 They performed his miraculous signs among them, 
       his wonders in the land of Ham.

 28 He sent darkness and made the land dark— 
       for had they not rebelled against his words?

 29 He turned their waters into blood, 
       causing their fish to die.

 30 Their land teemed with frogs, 
       which went up into the bedrooms of their rulers.

 31 He spoke, and there came swarms of flies, 
       and gnats throughout their country.

 32 He turned their rain into hail, 
       with lightning throughout their land;

 33 he struck down their vines and fig trees 
       and shattered the trees of their country.

 34 He spoke, and the locusts came, 
       grasshoppers without number;

 35 they ate up every green thing in their land, 
       ate up the produce of their soil.

 36 Then he struck down all the firstborn in their land, 
       the firstfruits of all their manhood.

 37 He brought out Israel, laden with silver and gold, 
       and from among their tribes no one faltered.

 38 Egypt was glad when they left, 
       because dread of Israel had fallen on them.

 39 He spread out a cloud as a covering, 
       and a fire to give light at night.

 40 They asked, and he brought them quail 
       and satisfied them with the bread of heaven.

 41 He opened the rock, and water gushed out; 
       like a river it flowed in the desert.

 42 For he remembered his holy promise 
       given to his servant Abraham.

 43 He brought out his people with rejoicing, 
       his chosen ones with shouts of joy;

 44 he gave them the lands of the nations, 
       and they fell heir to what others had toiled for-

 45 that they might keep his precepts 
       and observe his laws. 
       Praise the LORD.

Monday, December 01, 2008

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Bro. Soh & Discouragements

Finally, I managed to make it for Jordan Valley Baptist Church service yesterday before I am flying again. With the previous two weekends at two famous cities of U.S. (Las Vegas and New York City), this time, I am flying back home to Singapore. However, I am not going home permanently. I am only going back to get my clearance done with my current company and apply for a work visa to work in U.S. permanently.

The church service yesterday was great with the guest pastor preaching on discouragements pertaining to the spiritual walk with our LORD. In short, one thing still stands out in the midst of all discouragements faced by the Christian -> God’s Faithfulness. The pastor was preaching on Psalm 105 for our bible class and subsequently on Mark 10:46-52 on Spiritual Blindness.

During my nine months stay in U.S., a friend of mine passed away suddenly in a car accident and the dream team was lost due to the financial meltdown. The series of events turned to a point where I have to work in the U.S. for good now. One may say that all this is fated. Oh yes, I am fated to stay alone, work alone to fight all my discouragements alone in a far away land from home and folks at Jordan Valley Baptist Church are happy that I am staying for good in U.S.

For me, I know that God has intended for me to stay in the U.S. as well because I prayed to Him asking for directions and if either U.S. or Singapore has job positions for me; that will be the place where I will seek His Will and go for it. It turned out that after applying for job positions in both U.S. and Singapore, I was only offered a job in the U.S. Therefore, this land will be the place where I will continue on with my role as the workplace minister.

With the passing away of my friend whom I tried to reach out to her, I realized that I am just like the doctor with no control of Death. I can only share as much as I can on Christ but ultimately it is still God whom saves. It is like the doctor who can only do his best in saving his patient but still it is our God who decides if that patient is going to stay alive or dead in this constraint of time and space.

Over the last three months, I confessed that I am disillusioned with God and was down spiritually. I do not understand why some things happened although Romans 8:28 is still ringing true in my heart. God does cause all things to happen for the good of those who loves Him and called according to His purpose. Maybe it has been God’s will that I should be focusing on Him and be rooted only in His Love. And maybe that’s the reason He is calling me to stay in the U.S. to once again be part of His OVERALL BIG plan to save souls. I may not be able to settle down in this lifetime because He has other plans for me which is first and foremost to serve and glorify Him. Hence for me to do His GREAT WORK, I need to pick myself up quickly, stand up and be strong in His Strength. I am His son, His witness and His ambassador.

Lost my job in Singapore but found another in the U.S., I think God is still right when He first called me out to the workplace instead of full time ministry two years ago at Sentosa. In front of me are still many souls to be saved and to be a witness to. I got lots of work to do and I truly need to be rooted in Christ’s love so as to be able to finish all this work for Him. Amen.

Monday, October 27, 2008

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Vocational Nightmare

It has indeed been one long nightmare of eight months for my life in 2008. Hmm, it may be a beautiful dream too. An adventurous, beautiful but yet ‘cancerous’ dream which later became a deadly nightmare. (ABC, this is where the ‘C’ came in). Thinking back through the last eight months of my life spent in the US, I wonder what did I learn out of my life here? The lessons taught to me willingly or unwillingly by God? The soft skills attained through my job training? The technical knowledge gained through on job training? What did I learn? What did I attain? What did I achieve?

Eight months went on and I think I am now back to square one. Back to the crossroads where I first prayed during YA retreat in Sentosa beach, “Oh Father, which vocation do you want me to go into?” before I tossed that Singapore 50 cents coin to cast the vote for my future. (Remembering that Pastor did mention that casting lots is biblical.)

Today, am I still qualified as God’s workplace minister? This is the eventual question which I hope to achieve a positive answer. How did I contribute to God’s kingdom for the past eight months? How did I further God’s kingdom at all? Reflecting upon the time which has passed cruelly before my eyes, I can only say that I have failed in reaching out to my friends. The reason being I was too self-centered upon my own needs that I have neglected the work which the Father has assigned to me when He first called me out to the workplace.

I am completely humbled before Him right now. Having lost almost everything which I have once tried to build in my life, now I have practically no way to recover them back anymore. God has taken everything away from me. No matter how hard I tried to grab them, He has the strength to loosen my grip and take it away from me.

Back to the state which I was in two years back, I realized that I have to look to the LORD. I have to keep praying. I have to keep feeding myself spiritually. I have to keep staying on the course and be His good ambassador. I have to fight the good fight. I have to continue to keep the faith till the day which I will see Him again.

Standing once again at the crossroad of my life, I have additional emotional baggage to carry with me now. The journey in front of me is still long and the light at the end of the tunnel is still yet to be seen. The only way to carry on this journey is to know how to deposit my emotional baggage at the foot of the Cross of Christ, holding onto His hand and walk with Him to the finishing line. Please kindly pray along with me. Amen.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Parents' Debut Trip to USA

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Tuesday, October 14, 2008

A MIST in the span of time

That’s us. We are all just a mist in the span of time but thanks be to GOD that this life which we are now living is not all that is to be. People tend to say that life is short, live it as if there is no tomorrow. Or “One Life, Live It.”; “Life is short, eat, drink and be merry.” I even heard such an absurd statement as “Life is short, have an affair.” My dear friends, have you ever wonder if all these above statements are true in any sense?

Let us look to the Bible to hear what GOD (my Father) has to say about life.

Two paths which all of us (be it young or old) will definitely go. Either one of these two paths. Heaven or Hell? Which will you choose? And I am not joking when I am telling you that there is a place called Hell…

Let’s talk about Heaven first. Heaven is not a ghostlike, foggy atmosphere where disembodied spirits float around. Heaven is as real as this earth. Jesus told His disciples, “I go to prepare a place for you.” (John 14:2). Paul taught that Christians would have new imperishable bodies. (1 Corinthians 15:51-57). Heaven is real and I being a Christian know for sure that I am on my way to Heaven day after day, night after night.

How about Hell? Hell is as real as Heaven but there are vast differences. Hell for one is not a place where all the non-Christians gather together. It is a very isolated place with only one soul at an individual particular place. Totally separated from GOD because of sin.

This life which we now see in this span of time is like a mist. It is short with probably about eighty years if you are fortunate. However, it is not all that is to be. There is definitely a life with GOD after we finished the journey with this life on earth. Trust me that by putting your faith in Christ, you will be on your way to Heaven and not lonely in Hell.

Thursday, October 09, 2008

Sunday, September 28, 2008

Monday, September 15, 2008

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Luke 16:19-31

I was looking at this passage after I received the news that one of my colleagues passed away suddenly in a car accident…
The Rich Man and Lazarus

 19"There was a rich man who was dressed in purple and fine linen and lived in luxury every day. 20At his gate was laid a beggar named Lazarus, covered with sores 21and longing to eat what fell from the rich man's table. Even the dogs came and licked his sores.

 22"The time came when the beggar died and the angels carried him to Abraham's side. The rich man also died and was buried. 23In hell,[c] where he was in torment, he looked up and saw Abraham far away, with Lazarus by his side. 24So he called to him, 'Father Abraham, have pity on me and send Lazarus to dip the tip of his finger in water and cool my tongue, because I am in agony in this fire.'

 25"But Abraham replied, 'Son, remember that in your lifetime you received your good things, while Lazarus received bad things, but now he is comforted here and you are in agony. 26And besides all this, between us and you a great chasm has been fixed, so that those who want to go from here to you cannot, nor can anyone cross over from there to us.'

 27"He answered, 'Then I beg you, father, send Lazarus to my father's house, 28for I have five brothers. Let him warn them, so that they will not also come to this place of torment.'

 29"Abraham replied, 'They have Moses and the Prophets; let them listen to them.'

 30" 'No, father Abraham,' he said, 'but if someone from the dead goes to them, they will repent.'

 31"He said to him, 'If they do not listen to Moses and the Prophets, they will not be convinced even if someone rises from the dead.' "

I am very sad because I do not know where her soul is right now. Although I do acknowledge that my Father is sovereign and this accident has happened according to His Will, I just cannot accept the fact right now…

Monday, August 25, 2008

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

5 days to Park City Marathon!


"Therefore since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us." - Hebrews 12:1

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

To God Be the Glory

To God be the glory, great things He has done;
So loved He the world that He gave us His Son,
Who yielded His life an atonement for sin,
And opened the life gate that all may go in.

Refrain
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord,
Let the earth hear His voice!
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord,
Let the people rejoice!
O come to the Father, through Jesus the Son,
And give Him the glory, great things He has done.
O perfect redemption, the purchase of blood,
To every believer the promise of God;
The vilest offender who truly believes,
That moment from Jesus a pardon receives.

Refrain
Great things He has taught us, great things He has done,
And great our rejoicing through Jesus the Son;
But purer, and higher, and greater will be
Our wonder, our transport, when Jesus we see.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

The LOVE of GOD

The love of God is greater far
Than tongue or pen can ever tell;
It goes beyond the highest star,
And reaches to the lowest hell;
The guilty pair, bowed down with care,
God gave His Son to win;
His erring child He reconciled,
And pardoned from his sin.

Refrain:
Oh, love of God, how rich and pure!
How measureless and strong!
It shall forevermore endure—
The saints’ and angels’ song.

When hoary time shall pass away,
And earthly thrones and kingdoms fall,
When men who here refuse to pray,
On rocks and hills and mountains call,
God’s love so sure, shall still endure,
All measureless and strong;
Redeeming grace to Adam’s race—
The saints’ and angels’ song.

Could we with ink the ocean fill,
And were the skies of parchment made,
Were every stalk on earth a quill,
And every man a scribe by trade;
To write the love of God above
Would drain the ocean dry;
Nor could the scroll contain the whole,
Though stretched from sky to sky.

Monday, August 11, 2008

Wonderful GRACE of JESUS

Wonderful grace of Jesus, greater than all my sin;
How shall my tongue describe it, where shall its praise begin?
Taking away my burden, setting my spirit free,
For the wonderful grace of Jesus reaches me!

Wonderful grace of Jesus, reaching to all the lost,
By it I have been pardoned, saved to the uttermost;
Chains have been torn asunder, giving me liberty,
For the wonderful grace of Jesus reaches me!

Wonderful grace of Jesus, reaching the most defiled,
By its transforming power, making him God’s dear child.
Purchasing peace and heaven for all eternity;
And the wonderful grace of Jesus reaches me!

REFRAIN:
Wonderful the matchless grace of Jesus,
Deeper than the mighty rolling sea;
Higher than the mountain, sparkling like a fountain,
All-sufficient grace for even me;
Broader than the scope of my transgressions,
Greater far than all my sin and shame;
O magnify the precious name of Jesus, praise His name!

—Haldor Lillenas (1885-1959)

Sunday, August 10, 2008

When the roll is called up...

When the trumpet of the Lord shall sound, and time shall be no more,
And the morning breaks, eternal, bright and fair;
When the saved of earth shall gather over on the other shore,
And the roll is called up yonder, I’ll be there.

Refrain
When the roll, is called up yonder,
When the roll, is called up yonder,
When the roll, is called up yonder,
When the roll is called up yonder I’ll be there.

On that bright and cloudless morning
when the dead in Christ shall rise,
And the glory of His resurrection share;
When His chosen ones shall gather to their home beyond the skies,
And the roll is called up yonder, I’ll be there.

Let us labor for the Master from the dawn till setting sun,
Let us talk of all His wondrous love and care;
Then when all of life is over,
and our work on earth is done,
And the roll is called up yonder, I’ll be there.

Saturday, August 09, 2008

All that I Need...

All that I need is my faith in Jesus...
All that I need is my home above...
All that I need is my Father's Mercy...
All that I need is my Savior's Love...
Thank You, LORD for saving my soul...
Thank You, LORD for making me whole...
Thank You, LORD for giving to me...
YOUR SALVATION...
so rich and free...!
It was indeed a GREAT evening to be able to attend my Boise church music concert.
IMPRESSIVE music... AMEN...

Monday, August 04, 2008

My Ideal Vacation Place


The Jordan River in Israel

Sunday, August 03, 2008

If my posts are profound to you...

The god of this age has blinded the minds of unbelievers, so that they cannot see the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God. ~ 2 Corinthians 4:4 ~
Containment Action: Ask a true Christian to share with you about his / her FATHER.
Preventive Action: Pray to ask the only one true GOD of the bible to open your eyes to see HIM.
If you do not know how to pray, you can email me at edsoh98@gmail.com

Friday, August 01, 2008

I Need to PRAY more.

I need to pray more. Really pray more. I went to church’s prayer meeting on Tuesday evening which was also my Boise church’s midweek service. I really thank my Father for opening my eyes to His Word once again. Pst was preaching from a number of verses which identifies the Holy Spirit as our Counselor, our advocate, our defender, our helper and our comforter in times of troubles and needs.

Allow me to share with you all on the verses which were mentioned that night.

John 14:16 - 17 -> “And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Counselor to be with you forever – the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be in you.”

-=The Holy Spirit is my Counselor.=-

Luke 2:25 -> “Now there was a man in Jerusalem called Simon, who was righteous and devout. He was waiting for the consolation of Israel, and the Holy Spirit was upon him.”

-=The Holy Spirit is here to console me in times of troubles and needs.=-

John 15:26 -> “When the Counselor comes, whom I will send to you from the Father, the Spirit of truth who goes out from the Father, he will testify about me.”

-=The Holy Spirit is here to tell me about the Father.=-

John 16:7 -> “But I tell you the truth: It is for your good that I am going away. Unless I go away, the Counselor will not come to you; but if I go, I will send him to you.”

-=The Holy Spirit is always here within me and beside me to carry me through the tough stages of life.=-

1 Corinthians 14:3 -> “But everyone who prophesies speaks to men for their strengthening, encouragement and comfort.”

-=The Holy Spirit is my comforter.=-

The FATHER allows trouble to come into my life so that I can look to HIM and HE may glorify and magnify HIS NAME when I pray to HIM.

Many times I do feel lonely here in US but I still thank HIM when there is nobody to accompany me simply because it is only when I am the loneliest with no one beside me, then can I truly experience HIM and want to go close to HIM.

One last verse to share.

1 John 2:1 -> “My dear children, I write this to you so that you will not sin. But if anybody does sin, we have one who speaks to the Father in our defense – Jesus Christ, the Righteous One.

-=The Holy Spirit is my defender.=-

Alright, Brother Soh here needs to continue to trust and obey the FATHER and he knows that HE will definitely not disappoint him.

Why?

Because of this:
"The Lord God is a sun and a shield, the Lord gives grace and glory, no good thing he withhold from those who walk up rightly." Psalm 84:11

May our FATHER continue to bless all those whom HE has elected and opened the minds to see the light of HIS gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God!

Only the FATHER’s kingdom will reign. AMEN…

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Tell Laura I love HER...

Laura and Tommy were lovers
He wanted to give her everything
Flowers, presents and most of all, a wedding ring
He saw a sign for a stock car race
A thousand dollar prize it read
He couldn't get Laura on the phone
So to her mother Tommy said
Tell Laura I love her, tell Laura I need her
Tell Laura I may be late
I've something to do, that cannot wait
He drove his car to the racing grounds
He was the youngest driver there
The crowed roared as they started the race'
Round the track they drove at a deadly pace
No one knows what happened that day
How his car overturned in flames
But as they pulled him from the twisted wreck
With his dying breath, they heard him say
Tell Laura I love her, tell Laura I need her
Tell Laura not to cry
My love for her will never die
And in the chapel where Laura prays
For Tommy who passed away
It was just for Laura he lived and died
Alone in the chapel she can hear him cry
Tell Laura I love her, tell Laura I need her
Tell Laura not to cry
My love for her will never die
Tell Laura I love her.....

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Marriage Passbook

Jocelyn married William this day. At the end of the wedding party, Jocelyn's mother gave her a newly opened bank saving passbook. With $1000 deposit amount. Mother: 'Jocelyn, take this passbook. Keep it as a record of your marriage life. When there's something happy and memorable happened in your new life, put some money in. Write down what it's about next to the line. The more memorable the event is, the more money you can put in. I've done the first one for you today. Do the others with William. When you look back after years, you can know how much happiness you've had.'

Jocelyn shared this with William when getting home. They both thought it was a great idea and were anxious to know when the second deposit can be made. This was what they did after certain time: - 7 Feb: $100, first birthday celebration for William after marriage - 1 Mar: $300, salary raise for Jocelyn - 20 Mar: $200, vacation trip to Bali - 15 Apr: $2000, Jocelyn got pregnant - 1 Jun: $1000, William got promoted . . . . ..... and so on...

However, after years, they started fighting and arguing for trivial things. They didn't talk much. They regretted that they had married the most nasty people in the world.... no more love... Kind of typical nowadays, huh?

One day Jocelyn talked to her Mother: 'Mom, we can't stand it anymore. We agree to divorce. I can't imagine how I decided to marry this guy!!!' Mother: 'Sure, girl, that's no big deal. Just do whatever you want if you really can't stand it. But before that, do one thing first. Remember the saving passbook I gave you on your wedding day? Take out all money and spend it first. You shouldn't keep any record of such a poor marriage.'

Jocelyn thought it was true. So she went to the bank, waiting at the queue and planning to cancel the account. While she was waiting, she took a look at the passbook record. She looked, and looked, and looked. Then the memory of all the previous joy and happiness just came up her mind.

Her eyes were then filled with tears. She left and went home. When she was home, she handed the passbook to William, asked him to spend the money before getting divorce. The next day, William gave the passbook back to Jocelyn. She found a new deposit of $5000. And a line next to the record: 'This is the day I notice how much I've loved you thru out all these years. How much happieness you've brought me.' They hugged and cried, putting the passbook back to the safe. Do you know how much money they had saved when they retired? I did not ask. I believe the money did not matter any more after they had gone through all the good years in their life.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Trust and Obey

When we walk with the Lord in the light of His Word,
What a glory He sheds on our way!
While we do His good will, He abides with us still,
And with all who will trust and obey.
Trust and obey, for there’s no other way
To be happy in Jesus, but to trust and obey.

Not a shadow can rise, not a cloud in the skies,
But His smile quickly drives it away;
Not a doubt or a fear, not a sigh or a tear,
Can abide while we trust and obey.

Not a burden we bear, not a sorrow we share,
But our toil He doth richly repay;
Not a grief or a loss, not a frown or a cross,
But is blessed if we trust and obey.

But we never can prove the delights of His love
Until all on the altar we lay;For the favor He shows,
for the joy He bestows,
Are for them who will trust and obey.

Then in fellowship sweet we will sit at His feet,
Or we’ll walk by His side in the way;
What He says we will do, where He sends we will go;
Never fear, only trust and obey.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Thursday, July 10, 2008

Hey COME ON, I am not ALONE

As I listened to this song, “What Child this is”, I am touched with tears. I can feel the Father is ministering to me through this song. And I read Pst Chip Ingram’s blog – Living on the Edge which once again reminded me on surrendering my all to HIM. A verse shared by him which encourages me…

"The Lord God is a sun and a shield, the Lord gives grace and glory, no good thing he withhold from those who walk up rightly." Psalm 84:11

I was just thinking back on that joyful day when I accepted Christ in TPBC. The angels must be singing and cheering just like that night when Christ was born. Man can now live forevermore because of Christ. AMEN!!!

The bible says that only Christ understands what we are going through because He Himself has been there done that.

Incidentally, it is also Pst Chip Ingram who taught me that the very 1st step to begin a lasting relationship is to walk in love like my Father. Be imitators of Christ. Alas, I have failed even this 1st step and still wondering in looking for the RIGHT person. You will never find the RIGHT person, cs. You NEED to become the RIGHT person.

As I was showering just now, I realized this as if the Holy Spirit was speaking to me since many months when I am in US. Finally, I realized this… Trust in my Father and surrender to HIM today…

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

what CHILD is this

What Child is this who, laid to rest,
On Mary’s lap is sleeping?
Whom angels greet with anthems sweet
While shepherds watch are keeping?
This, this is Christ the King,
Whom shepherds guard and angels sing;
Haste, haste, to bring Him laud,
The babe, the son of Mary!

Why lies He in such mean estate
Where ox and ass are feeding?
Good Christian, fear, for sinners here
The silent Word is pleading.
Nails, spear shall pierce him through,
The Cross be borne for me, for you;
Hail, hail the Word made flesh,
The babe, the son of Mary!

So bring Him incense, gold and myrrh;
Come peasant, king to own Him.
The King of kings salvation brings;
Let loving hearts enthrone Him.
Raise, raise, the song on high,
The virgin sings her lullaby;
Joy, joy, for Christ is born,
The babe, the son of Mary!

Saturday, July 05, 2008

Life in US all this while

I think it has been a really long while since I have updated this blog with my own words, thoughts and life experience sharing. Honestly speaking, I went through a really unique experience in US. A really unique one which I will never ever forget for the rest of my life. It is true… Maybe not for eternity when I am with my Father again but definitely when I am in this School of Life.

I need to record what I am going through right now so that I can know what to share with my brothers and sisters back in Singapore. Too much information to share can sometimes lead me not to know where to begin.

General revelation of my Father is what I am seeing all this while in US. Large Canyons, beautiful lakes, rivers and huge rocks. It is revelation after revelation after revelation of the Father’s work. I do not know what words to use to describe His Master Piece and yet many times I confess that I still argue with Him on why He is putting me through the challenges in life here on earth.

Now while in the car on my way to Idaho Falls, I took out my laptop to write this entry. Not much of my reflection which I admit that I have not been doing for a long while but it is more like an update of my life here in US although very few people back home is really interested in.

It is really sad that I covet for my ‘EVE’ and failed to see my Father in many ways. Why am I still coveting when I already have my Father? Why? Why? Why? I do not know. After missing weddings after weddings after weddings back home, I think I am a 'cursed' man. Simply 'cursed'. By the time I am back home, I will have lost all my talking points with my friends because they have all entered a new phase of life and talking about how to love their wives more, family planning and raising kids. Haha.

Supposedly, I am commissioned to lead a victorious life in Christ but I am not and I also am finding out the reason behind this. I think I should spend more time in God’s Word since I have failed to feed on His Word daily and I am indeed missing out on my daily nutrition. (Mat 4:4) Oh man, my brothers & sisters in Christ back home, pls kindly pray for me to have more time with our LORD here. Pls do not merely say it in your MSN that God is with me. It is no use to me and all of us know this in our hearts, don’t we?. Pls do something more practical (in my opinion) which is to pray for me, ok? Thank you.

The second night when I first moved into my Boise APT, I broke down in front of the LORD. I do not know if I am too lonely or what. I just feel that I am too lost without someone talking to me. One of my primary love language is Quality Time but now is I have no one (no physical person) with me at the moment to spend quality time with me.

Dear LORD, I am sorry that I covet for my ‘EVE’. I pray for your forgiveness and let me take on the rest of my journey in this life with YOU alone, facing the challenges ahead to earn for YOUR crown in my Heavenly home. AMEN.