Bro. Soh & Discouragements

Finally, I managed to make it for Jordan Valley Baptist Church service yesterday before I am flying again. With the previous two weekends at two famous cities of U.S. (Las Vegas and New York City), this time, I am flying back home to Singapore. However, I am not going home permanently. I am only going back to get my clearance done with my current company and apply for a work visa to work in U.S. permanently.

The church service yesterday was great with the guest pastor preaching on discouragements pertaining to the spiritual walk with our LORD. In short, one thing still stands out in the midst of all discouragements faced by the Christian -> God’s Faithfulness. The pastor was preaching on Psalm 105 for our bible class and subsequently on Mark 10:46-52 on Spiritual Blindness.

During my nine months stay in U.S., a friend of mine passed away suddenly in a car accident and the dream team was lost due to the financial meltdown. The series of events turned to a point where I have to work in the U.S. for good now. One may say that all this is fated. Oh yes, I am fated to stay alone, work alone to fight all my discouragements alone in a far away land from home and folks at Jordan Valley Baptist Church are happy that I am staying for good in U.S.

For me, I know that God has intended for me to stay in the U.S. as well because I prayed to Him asking for directions and if either U.S. or Singapore has job positions for me; that will be the place where I will seek His Will and go for it. It turned out that after applying for job positions in both U.S. and Singapore, I was only offered a job in the U.S. Therefore, this land will be the place where I will continue on with my role as the workplace minister.

With the passing away of my friend whom I tried to reach out to her, I realized that I am just like the doctor with no control of Death. I can only share as much as I can on Christ but ultimately it is still God whom saves. It is like the doctor who can only do his best in saving his patient but still it is our God who decides if that patient is going to stay alive or dead in this constraint of time and space.

Over the last three months, I confessed that I am disillusioned with God and was down spiritually. I do not understand why some things happened although Romans 8:28 is still ringing true in my heart. God does cause all things to happen for the good of those who loves Him and called according to His purpose. Maybe it has been God’s will that I should be focusing on Him and be rooted only in His Love. And maybe that’s the reason He is calling me to stay in the U.S. to once again be part of His OVERALL BIG plan to save souls. I may not be able to settle down in this lifetime because He has other plans for me which is first and foremost to serve and glorify Him. Hence for me to do His GREAT WORK, I need to pick myself up quickly, stand up and be strong in His Strength. I am His son, His witness and His ambassador.

Lost my job in Singapore but found another in the U.S., I think God is still right when He first called me out to the workplace instead of full time ministry two years ago at Sentosa. In front of me are still many souls to be saved and to be a witness to. I got lots of work to do and I truly need to be rooted in Christ’s love so as to be able to finish all this work for Him. Amen.